I have recently been looking for work and today I found out that I have lost my primary source of the ability to have communication with the outside world. My phones have been disconnected I can not use gas to go and apply I have no gas for my car the web which is indispensable for looking for positions at large is due to also be terminated I am sure that there are many people in my situation and I probably sound like a broken record. To you, but the loss of all the essentials needed to run my home are exhausted.
We did not have credit card debt to fall victims to, we are not dysfunctional, people with habits like addictions or gambling, we just have no work available to us there are many things that can ruin a decent hard working individuals spirit but not being able to have food or shelter are pretty damming to anyone we are on a spiral vacuum and have not a clue to what to do next.. I have one car note left on my vehicle but no gas in it means there will be no car if the tides do not change for us soon…
I always tried to look at things responsibly and do the best that I can with what I have I have taught my children that. Our economy in my opinion has been trampled by President Bush’s leadership for the past eight years and it has been dumped into President Obama’s lap to try to resuscitate There was not a care in the worldfrom our prior administration for the hardworking class, the everyday people who are decent and make do. The utility companies, the banks, and the gas moguls have stripped away at our finances with the ravines etiquette of starved animals.
We are PEOPLE American people treated like an afterthought to all of the aforementioned guilty parties. I am for the first time ashamed that there is nothing I can do to change what is wrong with my immediate situation, but I am more ashamed to not have the opportunity to do so I may be mistaken but, I know that I am not because this is supposed to be the land of opportunity where if you work hard you can at minimal live decently. I concede that we are not all made to be of the affluent stature, but we all should have the OPPORTUNITYto try. I may loose like so many others have recently, but this time I am ashamed that there was nothing to do to change the tide.
When I woke up this morning I was bombarded by the alarm and the radio blasting away my husband usually sets his alarm and I set the radio but either way 5:am is 5:am. Well this morning was no different, or so I thought I had missed the initial alarm and it was the snooze alarm that was the ringing in my ears, How did this happen? There has never been a time that I just turned off the alarm, and gone back to sleep as much as I would like to. Well there is no way to get everything finished that I have to get finished. My children call me super mom. But really I just try to get it all done
If I could pick a day to sleep in it would especially not be on Tuesdays, There is trash for our home and two of my neighbors who are on vacation then there is getting the summer students off to there schools,(I have three in summer school at the moment) one of my own in college and a niece, then there are the summer youth camps to help keep the little ones in step for the beginning of school and after breakfast dishes I scour the web, and papers by 8:am so that I have a chance to apply for a job before the younger age people get the jump on the day. And this Tuesday was a birthday day.
Icing the cake I had left on the counter was on the top of my list, then I am in the older age bracket, born before 1960, so if a prospective employer that can see past the age factor will see that I am an energetic enthusiastic person with commendable work ethic (excusing today of course). And they will not miss the fact that I sent my resume in at the top of the morning. I do not sleep in, After having children and keeping up with their needs I gave up trying to sleep in as a lost cause, but I am not complaining even if it sounds like I am, I have a child leaving for college up state and well where has the time gone to, so no time for trying to sleep in
So back to what happened to my clock well my husband was attempting to let me sleep in ,because we were attacked by ants last evening when doing some much needed weed pulling, and well I took an anti allergy over the counter stuff and it made me sleepy, but I did not get to bed until midnight. We live close to the airport so my neighbors were taking the red eye flight to their vacation spot and since I had already committed my self to the run that I could not possibly drive them to now, meant that my husband would have to go instead. I was still a little drowsy, they had asked a week ago so making other last minute arrangements would be an inconvenience to say the least.
I decided to stay up baking while I waited for my husband to return, the nights are much cooler for baking and my son who is leaving this month had a birthday the next day Well a big mistake to bake when you think all are asleep, I left the un iced cake on the counter so that it could cool and I could decorate it the next day. I should have known better and of course I still blame that allergy stuff for my temporary (insanity) of leaving a freshly baked cake out in this household. Did I think about it all? Usually I count my fingers after serving up desert to my family. I might have left a note that it was a “birthday” cake hands off, but I did not recall having done that, well I am not only running late at all tasks that were to be finished early. Now I could not find the cake.
I called for a family meeting and I asked who took the cake the whole cake? No one answered well I just went on and on until I realized that not all were present at the family meeting, my youngest was not there, he is small and there is no way he could possibly have eaten it all but I called him to the meeting and he said that he had in fact taken it. My jaw fell open he said “mom” I took it I was dumb founded all of the other kids were cheering and say wow how could you eat a whole cake? He said “mom again, I sent him to his room, and did not let him finish
He said “no mom you’re not right!” I said that if he said one more word He would be grounded for a week by this time I was getting ice for my headache, when I notice the ice-maker would not render one ice cube, so I opened the freezer and there it was the cake all decorated and in the freezer the cake plate blocking the ice. I called to my son who came in and said that he was only trying to help me, so he thought since I was real busy here lately and that when he asked if he could help me yesterday I had mentioned that I needed two extra capable hands, well he said that he was capable and I said alright then see what you can do for your brothers birthday tomorrow and that I then went to bed.
I think that I will try to be a regular person this weekend and give (super mom a rest) and try to sleep in for once I failed to notice that one person just can’t do it all, I was very grateful for my sons help and for the lesson.
My family and I were invited to a friends property downtown in Houston, for the celebration, we rarely attend anything that requires being stuck in traffic for longer than an hour with the exception of the 4th of July, so we took a couple of coolers and lawn chairs for the big event and much to our surprise we all but missed the traffic, a sign of the time I guess (gas prices) the freeway was more than manageable.
We were centrally located with about 50 other people this friend was very generous to have us all there to be in a safe location and not have to worry about your kids or the bathroom runs or even the food, while we always take snacks on occasions like this we were met with the traditional hot dogs, and much, much more when we got there at about 7 pm. All of the kids played soccer, or catch or hide and seek and the grownups mingled, the evening was very warm, but there was a escalation of a really nice and cooling breeze that worked its way through the evening.
We had a really nice time and when the fireworks were finally exhibited they were very much worth the wait. I noticed that my kids were taking a video of the fireworks, something I always ask them to do, but something they never remember to do, so I said that I was glad to see that someone had taken on the responsibility of bringing a recorder to do what I almost always have to do.
My 19 year old said that this was a very special day for the traditional Independence Day recording, They had a plan to send it to their cousin who was deployed to Afghanistan a couple of months ago. He is one of those kids that just loves to see the fireworks and usually is the first one to ask you on the first day of June if we are going to go and make plans to get out and see the displays that the city offers to its community. I was elated that they had thought of him, especially since he is in harms way at this time, I can’t think of a better gift than to see that he was thought of on this great day.
I am proud of my nephew who has taken on the very courageous task of being a soldier, but I am also somewhat afraid of the inevitable escalation that could bring him harm, so we recorded the evening and mailed it off today, and he may get it in an email earlier than that, my son put it on the web for him just in case he has access to it (I hope he does). He would enjoy seeing that we all ate a hot dog in his name and that the fireworks were just as good as ever. Here is a big kiss and hug for all those young people out there in a far far place away from the safety of their own homes, so that we may enjoy ours.
