Lilly Sway

Yes I read your comments and the questions that you are asking me but these three are asked most often. “Hey is this you site”,” Is this your real life experience?” and “How can you deal with it all and not give up?”  Well of course it is my site, and yes it is about the life I live, I know that I have written some unbelievable stuff, but yes it is true there are very eventful things in my life as I am sure you all have had things happen at one time or another. Only I help work things out by writing about them to give myself a chance for clear reflection, and for maybe just to give someone, anyone a chance to implement a helpful hint in their lives,  or maybe there is someone who would like to give one back for a day in the life they have.

I manage to drag myself up out of bed hoping and praying that everyday will bring good and wonderful things into my life, I do have wonderful kids! that is one, I have a good husband that is two. I find that these things are always worth getting out of bed for. My life is for the most part in turmoil, I do not want to really face all of the chaos, financial problems or otherwise, but there is nothing that I can do about the tidal waves threatening to drown our  very livelihood. I know that all I can do is my best. I know that my best may not be good enough to keep things going. We have a saying in this house to laugh at the bad times. It is (can we make the monkey dance today?). We know that this means  someone has to put in a quarter to the music box  and someone has to turn the handle to make it play the music, and then someone has to pull the string for the monkey to dance. My husband tells us this little saying when times get tough.  I do not have ‘it all” I am struggling to my wits end, and I feel overwhelmed to the point of break so often here lately. I am only human (yes its true I am).

Even if I did not have my family, I know that things would be the same. I would still have the common sense to drag myself up and out of bed, even if I want to cave in and give up, even if I can not see a good ending to our story I still always hope for one. I have to help my neighbor who’s husband has passed away find her dog who ran away, I have to help the moms that have a job get their kids to school, I have to write to my sister and tell her that I love her and help her find how to struggle with the loss of our other sister, I have to sweep off the acorns from my walkway so I will not trip on them when I am in a rush, I have to wash the clothes before Monday as that is the day that we will have our power shut off , I need to climb my fence and cut the weeds that are rubbing against my car,I have to give my kids the same old meals and make them think that they are lucky to have food at all, I have to prepare for battle, for the tax man, the bank , and the car loan are all threatening again and again.

I am still getting up and getting ready to do my best no matter what, even if there are no quarters for the music box, even if the crank is stuck, even if the string is broken, even if the Monkey is not there to dance. I will still do my best where  ever it is. I will get up and do my best.

Food For the Mind

Lilly’s Way    www.lillysway.com